Not Pretty

I think I'm passive /aggressive. Maybe obstinate or stubborn. Pissed off with a big 'fuck you' attitude? Take your pick, they all look sort of the same from my angle.

Remember less than a month ago, I was talking about going for a promotion into the cash office at the stupid grocery store where I work? The idea was that there was a nice raise involved, which is always better than a poke in the eye especially if you can't manage to find yourself a better job somewhere else.

Because the store is changing formats from a Kwikie to a Somerfield's, I was told I'd need to speak to the HR lady who'd be coming to interview us all... tell her I was interested in the position. She COMPLETELY blew me off, and no, I'm not exaggerating. Other folks interested in different promotions were all out encouraged and told what they'd have to do to be considered. Me, I was told that I'd need to speak to my manager. Uh, excuse me, the manager was the one who told me I'd need to speak to you, HR Lady!

It took about a week to gel, to hear about the enthusiasm she had for others and sort out what this could have possibly meant to me. During this time I also learned that the money for that position wasn't what I'd heard stated. It's .50 more than what I make now. bfd.

So this is where the passive/aggressive part comes in. They held a meeting for all employees. In fact, they held it on four different days in order for all of us to be able to attend. This is where they gave us the employee packs, with all the rules and expectations. I didn't go, never even signed up.

A week later we were all supposed to attend another meeting to learn what was going to be happening in our store. They were going to tell us about the plans for the store, the timing, etc. I didn't go to that one either. I never planned to go so my excuse is indescribably hollow, but I worked 8 hours that day.. a big-bleed period day, and I wasn't going back out once I got home that evening.

So far, nobody's noticed. I'm sure there's paperwork that's been given out during these meetings, stuff needing to be filled out and turned back in. I hear my coworkers ask eachother if they've finished theirs yet. Hope no one's holding their breath for everyone's papers to be finished... not with what I've been hearing.

I imagine at some point they'll notice I've not attended the meetings. But I'm going to push my luck anyway. We're having a team-building meeting next week. See you there ~ NOT.

Yeah, yeah, I know this isn't flattering. I should be all rah-rah for the company but I just can't find the inspiration (or the off-switch for my brain) to enable me to participate with the proper attitude.

I'm still going into work. I've also been taking on extra hours at the last minute to help whatever brainless wonder has been making schedules and leaving us shorthanded. So I haven't totally crapped out on them.. yet.

Scold me if you must, but I seriously HATE my job!