It's raining outside. Not pouring, but definitely coming down in a steady stream. I sat outside for a smoke, hoping for relaxation to kick in so that I could sleep... turn my head off. But the NOISE of the rain! OMG.. it was like white noise from the tv, turned loud! It was very unsettling.
The Kwikie can get loud too. I've been working a lot of hours and I swear, some afternoons it makes my head ring. There are plenty of us there who either go home for lunches or sit in our cars rather than face more noise from the box-boys in the company canteen. LOL.. you should have seen the stack of magazines and newspapers I threw out last night when Lynne and I went to vacuum my car! She's such a honey for helping me with this particular chore, bless her heart... the thought of so much noise in a confined space makes me really procrastinate.
I haven't had much computer time lately. It's been irksome ( as in 'withdrawl symptoms'), but also rather revealing as well. The message board I haunt daily has come to feel remote to me. I'm sure it has a lot to do with the comparative infrequency of my posts.. but I feel quite out of the 'clique'.
It felt silly, but I talked with LynnieLou about this. We analysed how I write and responses received vs. expected. Then we looked at the amount of time I spend in crafting when I do expose bits of myself. She suggested I put more of myself into this blog... then invite a few more 'respected others' to visit. There ARE respected others but... and maybe you'll laugh.. I only know of them through lurking other boards regularly! I'd have to introduce myself first! My desire to be anonymous has somehow managed to backfire and I've bitten my own ass! I AM Nony *rolling my eyes*
The little voice inside my head suggests this is also related to my dearth of personal friendships here. (See earlier post re; Friendship / Time / Displacement Ratio ) But I'm working on that. I hope a more 'regular' job will help in that regard.. give me normal time off so I can do things normal people do.
It's also part of a deeper need to feel settled. Wonder when that will hit.
Suggestions, my dear friends, are most welcome.