Saturday, February 05, 2011

Am I Being Silly..

Or could I just be right?

I can say this here cos my kids don't read/ know of the blog's existance...

My daughter is in the process of breaking up with boyfriend of 4 yrs. They've bought a place together, and determining how to sort the home has naturally added to the mess and emotion of the breakup.

I asked my son to provide some emotional support for her and he said he didn't want to get involved. I left it at that.

I'm told he and his sister had a terrible fight, although I don't know and will NOT ask for details, I'm pretty confident it had lots to do with the breakup. Shortly afterward, she told me they'd made up and all was better.

Here's my anxiety though... I haven't heard from him since he text me he wasn't getting involved. I tried to ring him to congratulate his new engagement. I sent a few texts (mostly because it looks like his email has been hacked - we've been getting weird emails). I've heard nothing.

Am I in the doghouse?

Making it worse is the stupid jealousy I fight for their cordial relationship with their stepmom. She's lovely, honestly. I'm glad they've got her in their lives. But when I'm feeling ignored and I see him post that he would have enjoyed her company if they'd been able to join them out for pizza - something inside of me clenches tightly and it takes a lot of reasoning with myself to make it relax.

I was all set to do the full-out assault, make him talk to me .. but pride has stepped in. Let him be upset, it says. He'll 'forgive' you eventually... whatever for, I'm not quite sure but.. yanno. So I'm fighting being all weepy and weird and trying to convince myself I'm just being silly...

that he has a new love.. no time to text his mama.. and would laugh if he knew the emotion this has brought on... maybe his phone has given him trouble or something like that...

I miss my kids.

2 comments:

Sunshine said...

I'm not a mom, so I've never had this experience before. Reading this post lets me into a world I know nothing about. But though I don't know what it is like to be a mom, I do know you are a GOOD mom.

Hugs!

Anonymous said...

Just silly <3